In the past three months I have been working on solving Advent of Code 2021 puzzles. I probably have spent 80+ hours in solving all 25 puzzles. Yes, that is pretty much a whole two weeks of full-time work cumulatively, and that is with the help of this subreddit forum and a lot of online resources 😳.
In the past two months I have been reading the book The Network State. It is a thought-provoking book. It first gives an detail explanation of what's going on in the past, and what's up to the current times (and it is not pretty), and giving a few predictions on how will these trajectories goes. At the end, he is proposing an alternative explanation of building a new type of society, which could eventually lead to being a state, and how to do that.
I want to blog again. This has been in my mind for a while: I wonder instead of being hired full time by a company, can I be a freelancer getting paid based on my contribution. This idea come from the realization that if I can get fully committed to my employer endeavor, it is great. But it has been the case that after working for my previous employers for a while, I become lukewarm at work, and it is too drastic to make a change in my position. So I play safe and continue to stay in my role for too long until I no longer could tolerate it.
前陣子和友人出來吃飯聊天。我們是三年前在一個共享空間裡認識的。那時他搞了個產品，搞了一陣子，他認為做不下去，然後和一位合伙做了另一家公司幫客戶做市場推廣的專項，其後其中一名客戶就幹脆聘了他進公司的電子市場部內。
這次吃飯，各自聊過近況後，話題都不其然又回到我們之前為之死去活來的東西－創業。他認為做初創的人都是自私的，他們都在犧牲著家人的福祉來成就自己，又覺得當時這麼辛苦，都不知為了什麼？一方面所有事情都要自己一手一腳操辦，不懂寫程式，得邊學邊寫；不知怎樣找客戶，得硬著頭皮去碰不知多少的門釘；都是一個人在孤軍作戰。另外，錢也賺不多，而又總有這麼多可控及不可控的因素可使你滿盤皆落索。這樣把自己人生遊戲的難度調到地獄級，有必要嗎？後來和合伙人一起，又總是有爭拗，對整體發展方向，做事方式，對有限資源投放的看法都可能有歧見，最終不歡而散。沒合伙人有沒合伙人的煩惱，有合伙人也有合伙人的麻煩。反觀現在打工，工時穩定，收入穩定，收入是創業時的 10 倍。當時為何要如此作賤自己？